Sick of it all and sick of this life Sick of the pain and sick of the nights where I can’t sleep, i’m begging please If there’s a God, put out my lights Sick of the struggle and sick of the pain Fuck you bitch, i’ll spray you with mace I’m losing my mind, and you’re out of time Gimme one second, ima break your face BANG CHOP POW Who’s weak now? I’m gonna fucking cut you down Two weeks back you got in my face Shook me all up, threw me out of the place you got me then, you don’t got me now, I’m rocket your ass right into space I’m crazy, Brazy, My heads all spun My eyes went black staring at the sun Tapped into powers this world don’t know Bomb ticking in my mind, its about to blow BANG CHOP POW Who’s weak now? I’m gonna fucking cut you down Tell me once, Do you wana live? Tell me once, Do you wana die? Demon in my mind I’m a set him free Fuck around, find out I’m a go on a spree Demon in my mind I’m a set him free Fuck around, find out Bitch i’m a disease

Vape Juice, weed smoke. Unicorn Polar. your troubles are behind you. You love the girl though you barely know her. Its not okay. What they say. They criticize but they don't know us. We won't change. We'll stay all day. We're building something big even if they don't know it. even if they don't know it. Rig up the sound, Get the Lights Low. Tonight is gonna be big. & there's Jack's friend's mom, is an indie God. She knew Kurt in Seattle way back in the day. then she’ll hear us play, maybe then she’ll say “Yr crazy good and you don't even know it." She'll take our tape, and then she'll say, "I know some folks who dig this. if u want I could show them." "Wait a minute & I'll phone them." Let go of college, let go of school, Let go of the union job your uncle got you. Come back to the spot. We're gonna show this world what we're made of. Getting bagels with you at the dawn of the day. The sunrise climbs up high & you say, "We'll keep moving. No, Nothings gonna stop this train." "I can't picture my life any other way."

Back to the back to the back in the day when we all rode in style Slap to to the track to the rap boom bap She had that Chelsea Smile Drop two tabs and feel real sad when she leaves me in the street Ride my bike like Hofmann’s night That psychedelic speed. Maybe people think I got some evil in my veins Even that was the case they got some smoothness on their brains Back to the back to the back of the club By the merch table squad Sketchbook cries over loose leaf scries sketched then inked blood. Got cerebus on a leash but i’m about to let go If you see somebody with a dog bite go ahead and let me know Ancient scrawls on posters call like ghost trapped in plastic I riding on a dragon and I’m feeling fantastic Fuck you bitch, yeah fuck you all. I’m going my own way Treat you like a freak Like you deserve to be lonely Break off a piece of chicken bone and stab it in their eye First one to say shit Is the first to fuckin die. Back to the back to the back of my mind is where the chaos lies I’m only growing stronger and they prey on my demise I got a cats made of meat they threw away at the morgue Pet cemetery spells I’m bout to cook up some more Drinking led paint and tryna I’m tryna tone up my game Lets all rock n roll And I’m a Cain your Brain Fucking me your about to go missing Not Italian but you’ll be sleeping with the fishes I won’t run away. I won’t be a coward I’ll topple stone by stone all their soaring towers Tear those fuckers right outa the clouds They didn’t hear me then but they hear me now you filled me with this hate now you gone have to pay

Remember when we were kids shit was real easy then Don’t know who to trust. Got me bout to go and stir shit up. Shit went south for the whole crew. We all stopped pulling up don’t know who to trust. Not sure if I still give a fuck. Let me go. I can’t be your friend no more. Let me go. I can’t be your friend no more. Remember when we were kids. Shit was real easy then Don’t know who to trust. Got me bouta fuck a bottle up shit when south for the whole crew. We all stopped hanging out. Who could i even trust? Not sure if I’ll ever know whats up. Let me go. I can’t be your friend no more. Let me go. I can’t be your friend no more. I missed you then I miss ya now Shits still fucked I’m asking how this shit can make me feel so trapped Gotta leave the weird shit in the past They say I gotta live life in the present Gotta know I keep shit independent We’ll be okay, its always been In another time we’ll chill again Tried to leave, I tried to cry Maybe we don’t have to say goodbye

some old people died now we’re selling their shit their kids didn’t want it Now its come to this Some old people died the stuff has got to go lets gather what we can and try to make some doe Look in the back there’s a stamp collection I think these people had a creepy doll obsession found some mail order coins right here in the den just throw away the family photos man we can’t sell them Whats this stuff in here? Are they medals from the war? Korea? World War 2? $50 or more. These books over here are all in good shape Seem like rare prints victorian in age… Hey you fuckin assholes, go & learn some respect This person lived long and they tried their best. Objects all go somewhere but don’t make it a scene At the very, respect their memory,

I’ve gotta go somewhere I know no one will no my name. Its gotten so bad. Its like people knowing you before ever knowing you its drives me fucking crazy. My feet melt into the ground. Snaking vines reach up and wrap around. They wanna keep me from running. yeah i’ve been through shit. Fucked up drama. Why does everybody have to know my trauma? i’m the least interesting person here. if you’re bored go read a book. Its like people knowing you before ever knowing you its drives me fucking crazy. My feet melt into the ground. Snaking vines reach up and wrap around. They wanna keep me from running. Maybe i’m being a bit neurotic. Don’t gotta listen just cuz they’re talking fuck em. They’re fucking clown ass bitches. They can all suck a dick. its like people knowing u before ever knowing you judging something fucking with, for something u were going thru Sunk cost Loss is a fallacy, forgot why i ever came here, Fuck it gotta leave here. its like people knowing you being ever knowing you its killing me, fragility i would kill for anonymity I don’t leave but I don’t want to stay wish these motherfuckers would stay the fuck up out my way im gonna go fucking bat shit

This is the real me. I was drowning and dying but now i see. I’ve got a problem with my mind according to everyone else. They tell me to just take my pills and make sure I don’t get weird. but i haven’t taken them in two weeks. Thats why i feel this energy. They tell me its to make me right but i feel it puts out my light. This is the real me. I was drowning and dying but now i see. Alright, sorry if its a cheap excuse but i’m keeping this a buck, No one wants you to get better they just want you to shut the fuck up. 500 milli stabilizers just to bite my tongue. Pressed that without a daily fist of pills i’ll never be enough. I don’t know why I even try but no one wants to see whats inside. Got me some bens and changed my genre posted all my cringe online “Trev, it ain’t that deep. You just gotta pick yourself back up.” The waters rushing in and I could barely give a fuck. Uno, dose, trace, blegh. fuckin all blegh. I’m a fucking fucked up fuck. I got weird problems. So what? I’m a demon in the night. I’ll rock your shit. Suck a fucking dick you fucking ableist bitch. Wait, wasn’t i just in the middle of saying something? Oh yeah! This is the real me. I was drowning and dying but now i see. Wait, stop. I know that its sad. I’m just scared of losing the life that I once had. Its laughable I see to consider myself free. I’m just terriffied of losing the parts that i still consider me. This is the real me. I was drowning and dying but now i see. This is the real me. I was drowning and dying but now i see. This is the real me. I was drowning and dying but now i see. This is the real me. I was drowning and dying but now i see.

I’ve got Roots on my feet and twine on my wrist yeah the crows on the line were waiting for this scarecrow boy. i'm made for the job scarecrow boy. do they know i'm alive? I got this shirt from the farmers trash. repaired with a million different stitches and patches is this how these shady people wanna treat me? tie me up to a cross in the field and then they leave me. and the girl from the farm walks out in the field one hand with a book the other holding a needle and a thread she stitches a smile on my face and right before she leaves she kisses me on the head four weeks pasts before the girl came back. she brought a chair with her book and she read out loud. she sat with me and I tried to find the strength too reach out and touch her beautiful face I pull at the string that holds me down and the girl turns to me as she hears that sound she sees my hand is moving on its own she screams before turninging and running back home Months did pass be fore the girl came back she was carrying a torch with a knife behind her back she called out loud, “show your self now! Or I'll burn you here. You'll die no doubt.” I tried to wave or call out to her but I couldn’t find the strength and she set me too burn

Demon in my brain, I don’t know his name. Open the Necronomicon and try to find the page he’s calling all the shots, he’s making all the rules Gotta get him outa here you know i gotta make a move Walk into the junk shop, find some curiosities Tryna spend a fifty spot or maybe just a 20 piece go into the bacvk room, a mirror stands ominously clouds form on the surface and the reflection don’t look like me. Try to scream and try to fight the demon burrows in my chest. Claw at my face and sceam for help. I’m crying no, he’s screaming yes. I read the label clearly see, Don’t look or the demon binds to thee. Now i’m trapped, yeah now i’m fucked, how could this happen, how could this be? On the street I’m killing people cops are pulling all around. I choke and kill the mailman. I’m screaming, “This is not my fault.” The cops pull up with the bullets, Squeezing shots. They pierce my chest and then i drop. My body dies, the demon flies, he disappears into the night.,

yeah the parties over, walking back to my car. i left a burning desire way back at the spot there was so many people there I haven’t seen in some years. i felt a wholeness in my heart it nearly broguht me to tears I wana do si do. I wana fuck around lets make this shit go fucking stupid lets bring this fuckin house to the ground girls all wearing masks and all the boys were wearing black. My friend he tried to pass me a flask but i went and i passed that shit right back im not really the social type but i gotta try to feel that shit tonight maybe save me from the famous depression vibe, i’m looking for a warm heart to climb inside. I wana do si do. I wana fuck around lets make this shit go fucking stupid lets bring this fuckin house to the ground yeah the parties over find myself to the door. how come when i fil lmyself up i’m stll aching for more. there was so many people there i had the time of my life i felt a stillness in my heart so why i do i still wana die? I wana do si do. I wana fuck around lets make this shit go fucking stupid lets bring this fuckin house to the ground

Yeah I walk alone its what I’ve always done Stay awake at night and I avoid the sun The hunger brings me out for one thing its true I’ve gotta drink their blood. Its just what I do. The worst thirst cursed me first separated by the hearse, demons, & the church I was bit on the neck on the 31st First verse, Drank blood until I almost burst, Whats it worth? Vampire Man, thats what I am. Drinking hemoglobin right out of the can Lifeless eyes and my soul gone black Take your wooden stake & shuv it up your ass I’m living in the dark and I cannot see Trapped in the void how can this be? Immortal and stuck, locked underneath Mark my words, I’ll soon be free Hunting got me feeling weak, mystique Sees eyes staring back at me by the creek Fisherman pulls his line, by the vines while I’m coming up to snap his spine, so divine but one man’s not enough, its rough but I gotta hit Five and above, so what Y’know I’m only really bout the blood, red rum I’m a rock until the sun comes up, Get buck I was prowling by the center of town when it hit Sheriff and a mob of the people, coming quick Hit me with some rounds, knock me to the ground Think they wana kill me but they can’t, tough shit but the next thing they did filled me up with up surprise wrapped me up and chains and said their goodbyes Locked me in a coffin and in the ground I went Under 20 feet of dirt and a slab of cement I’m stuck down here.

I know no one here. I’ve got nothing to prove. There’s strangers staring at me and they got something to prove step outside of the club and they might stab you up. Shadows in the night. It makes me wanna die. I hold onto your words as they tear apart my world. Walk out in the forest at the old state park. There’s strangers staying out here but they do no harm They just wanna drink in peace. You best not call the police. They finna clap you up, if you get close enough. There’s people in the shadows there just trying to live They’re hidden for a reason, its the hate that u give Are people in the tents just piles of meat? There’s evil in your houses but yr scared of the street? Don’t get me wrong, I know, you gotta protect yourself Mind your own life, keep your eyes somewhere else Quit dialing on your phone unless you need an EMT And if you’re worried about your life go buy yourself a piece

Cigarettes & coffee, man. No we don’t need a plan. Sit around, all day. Philosophize, Pontificate ‘Coustic with a harp, man. Learn bass, we’ll start a band Fuck around, we’ll play. Smoke until we suffocate I know this girl from outa town, Got a sound, Down to clown. She’s got a spot with a stage, fuck it dog, lets fuckin rage. Bring the crew, bring the squad, Bring the homies, bring your dogs Kick the noise, throw it down Invite the whole fucking town Cigarettes & coffee, man. No we don’t need a plan. Sit around, all day. Philosophize, Pontificate Its nice to get to know friend Catch a vibe get in your head No can relate to us and we don’t really give a fuck Whats the point of living life? if we stay in every night fuck the world, Fuck your life Lets get fuckin weird tonight Smash a bottle, paint the wall Climb the roof, try not to fall Loneliness makes me scared When I’m alone, tear out my hair Get to the gig, fuck it up. Start a fight, acting tough Get thrown out, scream & shout What the fuck was that about? Broken heart boy, yeah dog, thats a mean trick. Cops show show up asking, yeah no ones seen shit

Walking round this city like a God damn ghost. Smoking so much I feel some pain in my throat its killing me to see you having fun without me. I know i should be happy but i can’t stand it at all try to forget your hands shaking as you left. I hope there’s still some pieces that you kept don’t act like i meant nothing at all. I could disappear tomorrow and you wouldn’t care. I miss you. You got off the train and I tried to turn the corner you were walking toward me and i tried to ignore ya I put my headphones on and I looked toward the ground Look away for just a second you were gone without a sound try to forget your hands shaking as you left. I hope there’s still some pieces that you kept don’t act like i meant nothing at all. I could disappear tomorrow and you wouldn’t care. I miss you. you were at the center of my whole damn world. Drinking so much I lost three days in a row. Its killing me to see you moving on without me. I know i should be happy but i can’t let it happen. try to forget your hands shaking as you left. I hope there’s still some pieces that you kept don’t act like i meant nothing at all. I could disappear tomorrow and you wouldn’t care. I miss you. Walking round this city like a God damn ghost. Smoking so much I feel some pain in my throat its killing me to see you having fun without me. I know i should be happy but i can’t stand it at all

Late nights in the car, cigarettes and candy bars. Your ex boy is on the phone but he’s a bitch he’s staying home. Lets just chill and drive around or pull up to the party house, I know people pulling up these dudes are chill they don’t give a fuck Lets get lets get fucked up i wana fuck my life up lets get lets get fucked lets all fuck are fucking lives up piss drunk in the tub, i kissed my friend now we’re in love, been waiting on the world to end and for a night to wear this shit. i thought we would just drive around but now we at the party house I know some peoiple pulling up if they fuck with you i’ll fuck them up Lets get lets get fucked up i wana fuck my life up lets get lets get fucked lets all fuck are fucking lives up fuck is that the sun, is that the sun? I’ve been here for too long. Oh fuck i lost my phone. I need a ride back home. Oh.

so high my eyes are dry red with blood, i wana die room is spinning, cat is grinning who the fuck am i kidding try to find, peace of mind holy fuck i wana die On the couch, can’t talk maybe i’ll go for a walk I’ve been walking alone in the night i hope i don’t get lost or killed the day went flying by sun set fast to my surprise Lost my phone on the way home so why am i hearing dial tone? seeing shadows in the night street light pole, sumthins behind Something moved, I gotta go If I die tonight no one whould know I’ve been walking alone in the night i hope i don’t get lost or killed

Today I went for a walk I went to the park where we once chilled yeah Stayed till it got dark stayed till I was scared i might get killed yeah This town really changed so much since i was a kid yeah its stuff that seems mundane but to me the change is crazy big And yeah i know its sad I think it will be fine Change can drive you mad It happens all the time Yeah I know its sad, I want it really bad. We been in this for generations Gotta get rich or just jump in a ditch Our parents keep telling us to have some patience Like planting a tree, shoulda got a degree Shoulda been born in a different zip code Don’t wanna be rich, don’t wanna be selfish i just wana own my own home Today i went out for a drive tried to get lunch at my favorite spot I thought i must’ve lost my mind the diner is now a parking lot They’re building up lofts Shiny, sleek, tall & gourges you’d die if you jumped off but its probably nice if you can afford it My friends all in a better place Small towns, more affordable they got starters homes far away Maybe its not horrible So I’m trying to get my money up Probably gonna live in the middle of nowhere Say goodbye to the city I love I’ll come back if i get rich if i even still care

i know somethings wrong with you. You’ve got a Darkness in your eyes. I can’t explain it. Evil in your words. These patterns ignored. I think I still love you. I know its bad. Can you really tell the difference with Earth & Hell? Maybe it looks the same. Especially when you’re in pain. Fall in love and close your heart. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Let your death be your art. i know somethings wrong with you. You’ve got a Darkness in your eyes. I can’t explain it. Evil in your words. These patterns ignored. I think I still love you. I know its bad. I left my friends for dead. They held this shit above my head. Lean into the love I found. Even if it puts me in the ground. Fall in love and close your mind don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Find what you love and make it die. i know somethings wrong with you. You’ve got a Darkness in your eyes. I can’t explain it. Evil in your words. These patterns ignored. I think I still love you. I know its bad.

He was once a standup guy Someone you could look to on your darkest night Kindness in his heart, treated everyone the same Never infected by the superficial pain we used to be boys now shits gotten strange i miss you from time to time i’m fightin off the pain We used to boys now wish i could give you a call but you haven’t answered my shit since at least last fall Thought we were ride or die you musta thought different You were a day onewho was i kidding? Are we family or not? Does that mean shit to you? I’m just dead. I’m no one. And there’s nothing i can do? Put up what walls you want, I won’t tear them down. I’ll leave you alone until you wana come around. I love you like a family. You’re my homie till the end. But i’m still your brother even if I’m not your friend.

Yoo bro, its been so long. How’ve you been? it’s me. You look good dude. Cut your hair off. how’s your mom she still around? Oh fuck dude. I’m sorry to hear that. Wait you had a kid? You’re married? When was that shit? It must’ve been a banger. I wish I could’ve gone. Just family? Oh ya for sure, thats good to do. Save money and shit. Hell ya. Well we should catch up some time bro. It’d be good to see you. Maybe we could jam or some shit. Its cool regardless though man. I’m crazy busy too. Yeah. Odd jobs and shit. Lots going on. Always moving up. Hell ya. But yeah man, you still got my number? Its sthe same. Facebooks cool too. Hell ya bro. See ya round man. Good seeing you. yo did you hear Derek got married bro? He’s in town for thanksgiving bro. Wait, you were there? Nah, man. Derek. He said it was just family. You were one of them groomsmen? Cheddar too? Damn. C,B Am, F, G Farmilair faces all around, Hit the local bar and see everyone in town. Every old friend I haven’t seen in a while, Its either bright white teeth or a toothless smile. Some went to the grave in tenth grade but I’m here still, so are you. Lets get trashed at the bar cuz there’s nothing else to do. Your old man sold the house last week, Got himself a condo on the florida keys. His drunk ass lighting up on the beach Our smart friends, moved on, they’ve got beautiful wives and corporate jobs. Coaching kids sports and shooting the breeze, Taking family photos on a Cape Cod beach. I’m proud of them, man. It ain’t easy building a life like that. At the skatepark, its pretty sick. They redid the town park and its crazy as shit. The kids today land every trick in the book, I’m feeling old pushing round but I still got my back krook. It feels weird but I’m still here. And there’s real ones, like me. They still kicking shit they got nowhere to be. Being out on the scene brought me back to the day, Now I see my dead homies in some little kids face. Feeling trapped might need to escape.

Found myself a way to escape, The type of place you don’t feel afraid. Paint the walls and color my face The skies are clear and the water tastes great Found myself a place I could hide Feel so high I’m riding this vibe Feel so happy that I could die Is it ego death or ego suicide They tried to pluck me out the stars I was speeding through the sky in a shiny car Found myself some folks I like well I feel their warmth, the best that i’ve felt. We share twin souls, Oh yeah, I can tell. Ain’t going to heaven they’re just tryna run from hell Found some love and then I found more My spirits sores from up off of the floor Feel the fire burn in my core. If there’s creeping dread, the spirits help me ignore.